5 Months

In the middle of the night I sit in my chair

Talking to you without any care

I got school in the morning and there is work to be done

But talking to you I’m having too much fun

It’s hard to focus on the work I should do

When someone has dazzling beauty like you

The distance between us makes me blue

I feel like an animal caged in the zoo

When all I want to do is be there with you

5 months to go

That’s all there is

Till I see your pretty face

It will be the first time we met

But I’m willing to bet

What we will experience we will never forget

So much can change from now till then

Lets hope it works out for the better in the end

Your the girl from me

That is easy to see

But for now your here and I’m there

And it all seems a little unfair

But if it is meant to be

It will be

And we can only just wait and see

Even though sitting back and waiting is not me

It’s all I can do

And be true to you

5 months to go

That’s all there is

They

They say I'm funny
They say I'm smart
They think they know me
But they really do not

Those who are closest say I don't show emotion
They can't tell if I'm mad or if I'm sad
They can only see that there is something on my mind
They are looking for something they can not find
But I'm not supposed to show emotion
For I am a man

They say my life is tragic
After all I've been through and still only a teen
I've yet to attend a wedding
But funerals I've seen plenty
When I lost a parent
I could not speak
It was only tears that I leaked
My brother was another
It was all too quick
Young enough to wear a bib
He died in his crib
I'll never forget how hard my father squeezed as they laid his son to rest
I could not cry
I could not speak
I just stood there and stared
For the answers that I seeked
The lowest of the low
But it got better
How could it not?

They assume my life is sad
But it hasn't been that bad
I've been given a lot and I've worked for what I got

What they say isn't entirely true
To learn the facts you must ignore the fool

Memories Can Eat You Alive

You look back and think about the past
what has happened, what you could have changed
you remember the good and the bad
but naturally there is always more good
Memories are more powerful than they seem
as they can make one feel happy or sad
yet the bad ones is not what makes you sad but the good ones
Because no matter how hard you try to recreate that memory, it is never the same
people and places always change

you try to live forever in a moment
you die to relive the precious moments
but nothing is ever the same
you think of those who are to come and those who have past
hold those who have past close to your heart
and continue to move forward
As a memory can eat you alive